The leaves are changing, they said way too early in August—and they were right. It started with a premature crimson splash here and there. But soon the green of summer was transitioning full speed to yellow, orange, brown and crimson of autumn. Fall was here.
It was a pleasant change, everyone agreed. While there’s some debate about summer and winter, almost everyone I know likes fall. No more sweltering heat. No more weeding the garden. No more mosquitoes. There’s apple cider, favorite sweaters, the way the air smells, fires that feel cozy again. We take slow drives down country roads to enjoy the daily-evolving color show. The piles we rake up in yards are better, in my kids’ opinion, than a MacDonald’s ball pit. We press the most gorgeous leaf specimens between book pages to treasure. What’s not to love?
Things are not quite so spectacular from the leaves’ point of view, though. They turn gorgeous colors, sure, and receive more admiration at this time of year than during any other season—but the reality is that their doom is imminent. As the crimson leaches down to their tips, their connection to their mother tree deteriorates and loosens.

I drive down the road in a windstorm, and a rainbow of leaves swirls down from the sky like confetti. This is their fate. Magical to me, the end of life for them.
For them the change means letting go, falling, fading, shriveling, crumbling, crushing, eventually composting away into anonymity on the forest floor. It is perhaps not quite so pleasant described thus, because none of us like those kind of changes either. We all prefer the celebrating kinds, the weddings, new babies and job promotions. Anything to do with rotting? Not so much.
There are changes we seek, and changes we don’t. Sometimes we get to pick the form of change, sometimes we have absolutely no choice in the matter. Sometimes it comes sooner than we want, or much later than we’d longed for. Sometimes we embrace it, run to it in gladness or relief. Sometimes we fight it long and hard in vain. Sometimes changes are slow, over time, barely perceptible. Sometimes they are sudden and earth-shaking. Sometimes change is short-term. Sometimes it’s permanent.

Elusive as change is to nail down, however, there’s one sure thing about it, and it’s that change is as inevitable to life as autumn is to the circle of seasons. It will come. And sometimes that’s a fearful thing to us humans who like to map out our yearly planners months in advance and make our tidy little five, ten and twenty-year plans for success. Even joyful changes can create stress by throwing off schedules.
That’s why serving a God who is unchanging is so incredibly wonderful and comforting. I can’t guarantee you whether the next change in your path is going to be hard or happy, but I’d like to remind you today that though all may change around you, you have a Friend who NEVER will—and that’s a promise.
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” (Hebrews 13:8)
I’ve been a bit missing in action for the last month or two, and for those of you who haven’t guessed, it’s all due to a bit of a recent career shift. From here on out, if my posts start to sounding to you like those of a kindergarten teacher, you will be correct. It’s an exciting new chapter for us, but a busy one, with lots of adjustments to new schedules and more time spent researching literature and art projects for unit studies than composing blog posts. I hope to get back to posting more often eventually, but we’ll see!
It makes sense: who else in the whole world cares more about her success than I do?
I sensed, going into the retreat, that my ideas were good but jumbled. If you know anything about the world of home education, you know that the amount of resources available are both incredible and rather overwhelming. I needed some vision to narrow my focus down from all those fabulous options to what would work best for us—and I always think most clearly while walking. And if the walk winds through sun-dappled woodlands around the edge of a sparkling blue lake? If there’s not a sound to be heard but the crunching of leaves beneath your feet and the wind in the oak tree tops? All the better.
Little by little, each day it grew;

“Little by little,” said a thoughtful boy,
“Little by little, I’ll learn to know
“Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it.” (Proverbs 22:6)
Farewell to shadows of bluebells on white chicken coop walls…
Farewell to pleasant afternoons hanging laundry on the line in the company of friendly toads…
Farewell to grasshoppers, and white trumpet vines, and all other such elegant pairings…

Farewell to barefoot days at the edge of the lake……
Farewell to the haunting serenade of loons…
Farewell to daisy bouquets made by small hands, and smoky sunsets, gifts from forests burning far away…
Farewell to cumulonimbus, those splendid, tall ships sailing by in the sea of the sky…
Farewell to restless, flitting warblers in green, green meadows…

Farewell to lush gardens decked in the thousand diamonds of sudden morning showers…
Farewell to the brief, warm nights, sparkling with celestial beauty and fireflies, humming with mosquitoes…
Farewell to all the sun-ripened berries hiding under the leaves…
Farewell to picturesque encounters on whimsical summer evening drives…
Farewell to all the babies, now raised and grown…
Farewell to dancing swallowtails in ballrooms of flowers…
Farewell, sweet summer; welcome, glorious autumn!
It all began with a few simple needs that could be easily taken care of at a Walmart. It would be a quick errand, I thought. The only (small) problem? I didn’t know where Walmart was in this unfamiliar city.
“After 50 feet take a left turn onto 8th Street,” the confident feminine voice instructed. Still rattled from the close call with street signage, I sailed right past, missing my very first turn.
But we eventually got there, that big truck and I, surprisingly all in one piece. We went around the block to get back on track instead of making the U-turn. We survived the road construction. The voice from my phone carried me through, calm and unruffled through all my missed turns and second-guesses.

Sometimes, the right way to go in life is a little like that, too. You know, not quite as direct and smooth as we’d like? And sometimes, even if you’re asking the right One for directions, it’s easy to mistrust and question whether He really knows where He’s taking you. Sometimes we even go so far as to strike out on our own, hoping He’ll change his mind to suit our preferences
Meet my borrowed kayak!
I slipped along past the water lilies, and brushed gently through the wild rice. The water was like glass except for the artful zigzags of water bugs. The mosquitoes stayed away, and I could hear a blue heron croaking in the distance. Water dripped down to my elbows as I dipped the paddle up and down, and for a few minutes, the looming to-do list for the upcoming weeks faded away to the back of my mind.
The quiet of the water was a peaceful place for thinking, and as I floated airily along in my orange pod, it occurred to me that the gift of life is a lot like a borrowed kayak.
My encouragement for the day? If there’s a kayak sitting neglected in your yard, go use it. It’s good for the soul. And if your life feels a bit like a neglected kayak, go use that, too. Spend it well–and when time is up and it’s time to give an account, you’ll have no regrets.
We paused on our evening walk by a stand of sturdy broad-leafed plants, with their rounded flower heads bursting demurely into dusty pink. It’s a habit formed in kindergarten for both of us, this annual foray into a milkweed patch. After years of monarch caterpillar awareness, we “knew” that it was just that time of summer that there should be some caterpillars in that milkweed, somewhere. And we needed to say hello, show them to our girls, maybe remind them that there’s a nice little flower garden full of butterfly-friendly flowers in front of our house that they’re welcome to visit when they’re grown up.
It was a delightful little game of hide-and-seek, peering under leaves, along stems—and it was a credit to surprisingly clever camouflage that we had almost given up when we finally spotted one. But then it was like our eyes adjusted and we suddenly saw them everywhere! Some tiny, some large, dressed in yellow, black and white stripes, far too busy eating to notice they’d been discovered by friendly nature enthusiasts. Did you know that a Monarch caterpillar is capable of eating an entire milkweed leaf in less than five minutes? Pretty amazing mouth-work for such a tiny creature!
A few weeks later, walking past the same stand of milkweed, I witnessed a delicate orange and black butterfly flitting from flower to flower, graciously sipping nectar, and I found myself marveling anew at the beauty of God’s design for sustainability in creation.
And while we’re marveling over Monarch butterflies, let’s not forget how those gorgeously designed wings covered in tiny delicate scales will carry this creature 2,500 miles to Mexico come fall, to spend a warm winter on the exact same few trees its ancestors have spent winters on for ages before, and then all the way back again in the spring to lay the eggs that will become that next generation of caterpillars—because there isn’t any milkweed in Mexico!

…my camera gave to me,
…my camera gave to me,
…my camera gave to me,